Homesick

Bukannya tak balik Kuantan. Baru je touchdown KL tapi dah meleleh leleh nak balik Kuantan semula. 

And I keep on saying this in my backhead like a mantra.

Aku rasa malam ni aku mimpi tengah masak daging.

Every

Fucking

Time.

Mimpi

Ingatkan bila penat boleh lah tido awal, tapi harapann..

Mimpi kene bomb sampai terjaga tersentak berdebar debar takut. 

Mimpi tengah lari nak kena tembak.

Mimpi duduk tempat berdebu debu rasa muka kotor sangat. 

Pastu rasa kulit tegang sangat, gatal yang jenis merenyam tu. 

Esok bangun kuku penuh darah. Skin merekah-rekah. Rasa tangan kaki macam bengkak in pain. Sedih meleleleh betul tengok skin macam ni. 

Pegi rendam ayaq panas. Tapi pastu kene mandi air karat jugak. zz. Tatau la macam mana nak hidup kalau tetibe kene hidup susah mandi air sungai kotor hari hari, mesti berkudis je kulit lepas tu. 

T_T

Alhamdulillah hidup lagi kau

Last weekend was a looooooooong weekend. 

I choose to stay in KL cuz mom not gonna be there. Fwensie going back to hometown, some even off to holiday.

Me? 

Home. Watching movie back to back on Netflix and Popcorn. Scroll IG and FB for thousand times. Trying hard to complete monthly report and spring cleaning, which these two settled on 2AM the next day. lalala

Most of my friend know, Farah sejenis manusia tak pernah lekat dekat rumah. But I break my own record. Sariyanto pon tak start langsung. I cooked to eat. Insane right. 

Then, the next working day which is Tuesday, I'm off to work and was glad and happy to be in the blue room. This. Is. Not. Normal. Why do I feel so happy to be in the office? I even skipping myself going upstairs. Oh Lord.

So, yesterday, Pija said she was bored. We met at Sentral. She was there with smile and open arms ready to hug. The first sentence that came out from this lady was; 

"Alhamdulillah Farah hidup lagi aku ingat dah mati melekat kat rumah tiga hari, selamat lagi kawan aku alhamdulillah."

K.

The Deal is Sealed

Either you find someone before 32, or I will. 

Say It To My Face

because I am fucking good ignorant.

I might as well try not to be bothered with all this bullshit you create.

Cita-cita

Hari-hari cita-cita nak hupdate blog.

5 bulan kemudian masih gagal. Haha.

2016 tahun paling gamble. I run from home. Well tade la larik sangat, but without my dad's consent. He asked to stay and help him, but something happened, I couldn't stay any longer, else I'll be the real tanggang.

Apparently, when things happened, this job offer me the best thing that I could have. Something that I wouldn't dare to take last two years because I don't find my passion in it. Tapi sebab nak lari, aku accept it and just go for it.

So here I am. A network engineer. Life is nerd I tell you. Sekarang da faham la kenapa budak IT mostly gemuk, specky, nerd, muka stone, skema. HAHA. Let see how long I can maintain my figure. Life apparently become just like an engineer should be. Sleepy, stone and shabby.